The houseboy delivered me a cup of tea in bed today, and said I should make it a stipulation of Earth Week to have plenty of tea in bed each day. Really, it sounds good to me. And one day in the week isn’t bad going.
Rubin is making monster trucks or something in his room, chatting happily. For now he’s letting me stay under my covers a little bit longer – a luxury.
When he was little, I used to interrogate friends with older kids about what age their kids would be willing to play by themselves for a bit, so that you could sit and maybe read a book for half an hour.
We’re not quite there yet. But sometimes we have moments. Perhaps the process would have been accelerated if I’d provided Rubin with a sibling. Is it too late now?
I haven’t completed all the tasks I set myself for Physical week yet, which is kind of strange to reconcile because I feel like teacher and student all wrapped up into this tired inclusive bundle.
If I’m the teacher then it shouldn’t matter if I don’t compete the work. And so the focus becomes more applied to how much I can let myself off the hook of my ridiculously demanding expectations.
What I’ve found, above all else this week, is that I need, really need, to slow down. This week I have allowed myself to even buy some clothes and browse the shops – could that pass as an urban version of the Earth Medicine Walk?
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ah yes, the Solitary Play — brilliant thing, that. Sebastian has always preferred his own company (I am called upon occasionally for robot assembly difficulties and for the reading of books) but mostly I’m assigned to spectator….which is grand by me because I was utterly hopeless in the ‘floor time’ category. Savannah, being older, is often doing her own thing….happily we like to each do our own thing, but within each other’s company. Quite divine actually. And no, the sibling thing? No guarantees for peace, harmony and Playing Together. Trust me on that one!
And yes…tea served in bed sounds quite delightful. Where can I get myself one of those houseboys, I wonder?
Perhaps each *week* could be one of those Creation vs. Evolution *weeks* where they last for an extended period of time…..I am personally still getting on with the house-cleaning…etc.
~love~
How telling that you slow down in the past tense.
More inspiring journal and blog entries. Blessed are those who walk this journey with you gorgeous one.
Love & Light
Kez xx